Discrimination....

i guess this is the part where i bore you with my life's story huh??!?

:Myself:
im already at a legal age (hahaha! wat a way to start!) and um... currently enjoying life! i am pan-asian or wateva u call it la.. dun give a damn actually... im 1/4 Aussie and 3/4 Malay... and yet, if u noe me that is, and u probably do, my Aussie blood aka my Dads genes are f*cking strong... u can really see it, much at my dismay... its that bad! why u ask??

Imagine this, u walk around on a normal, average day.. looking at ppl around u...normally... but they look at u... with a stare so deep, they jz might be able to look right through ur thick skull... then they start analyzing u... from head to toe.. their faces start doing weird smirks.. in my case.. since im, uhh.. bout 5'9, they'll give me this shocked look, then they look at my shoes (wondering if im wearing 6 inches?!?!?) and then, when they realize im not.. they do that thing with their eyes, u noe, that 'bulgy' thing... as if their eyes are popping out.. yeah that.. and look for the first person they see to tell them bout the 'thing' he/she jz saw.... and yes, i did refer to myself as a 'thing'... funny huh??! i noe ur laughing... okay.. now, imagine it happens every single second u see or meet someone new.... literally every moment of ur lifetime... while ur jz walking, or shopping... yeah.. keep imagining... not so funny in the end huh??

Yeap... *sigh* the shit i go thru everyday... hasn't been easy.. i noe a few others like me (as in mixed up in races) ppl especially TYPICAL MALAYSIANS.... they would jz assume... and pick on us... as if we're sum kind of.. i dunno??! jz they LOVE to pick on us... i guess its because we (as in a mix) look different... another thing they like to do is discriminate.. how?? example.. when i was younger... actually its still going on... since i was a little girl.. started in skool actually... ppl would refer to me as "the tall one" or "anak mat saleh tuh" or even "ala.. yg besar tuh" !!! i mean come on! i've got a name Fuckers! there u go... im starting to curse.. haha! sorry... nway.. again this, i noe it sounds damn funny (i hope u dun crap urselves) but it goes on and on... again, not funny ppl.. if u think u are currently doing this to someone..
stop.

Here's another story...
in primary school, i got bullied.. really badly u noe.. by both girls and boys... i aint gonna name names here
(dun wori Dath, Nabila, Hiba, Imran, Eidrix, Prasshant, and all my classmates.. i wont tell anyone u guys bullied the SHIT outta me and scarred my childhood memories for LIFE....)
errm..erm.. where was i?? oh yeah, bullied.. for about a year... no wait... a year plus... hah.. yea, and the part is.. now were all gud friends... the chief bully, well thats wat i was told by them la ( Nabila, no offense.. i wont tell anyone! i promise!!!) is now my BEST FRIEND!! funny how life turns out huh... anyhoo.. one day i decided to round all of them up and ask them the "one million dollar question"... 'Why did u guys bully me?"

This... this.. hah.. haha! was the best part i swear!!!! Guess wat they said... And i SWEAR they said this... all of em...
they said.. "umm.. Dunno!"

wtf right! dun get me wrong.. i hav nothing against them (DAMN U GUYS!!!! AAAAH!!!) but... wat kind of answer is that rite??? so.. doesnt this so called 'story' support my statement that 'we' get discriminated.... jz because i look different.. which i did... and still do..

So, there u go... its hard to live a life where ppl love assuming bout u....
damn.. there i go with the 'emo' thing again.. sori!
God!! i've written so much... i haven't even started on family yet.... Haha!

wait... lemme do another one... haha!!!!

ciao!!